The boys from Johnnies are back and breaking my heart.
Johnnies # 3
Evan Costa learned from a very early age that there was no such thing as unconditional love and that it was better to settle for what you could get instead of expecting the world to give you what you need. As Ethan, porn model for Johnnies, he gets exactly what he wants—comradeship and physical contact on trade—and he is perfectly satisfied with that. He’s sure of it.
Jonah Stevens has spent most of his adult life helping to care for his sister and trying to keep his beleaguered family from fraying at the edges. He’s had very little time to work on his confidence or his body for that matter. When Jonah meets Ethan, he doesn’t see the hurt child or the shamelessly slutty porn star. He sees a funny, sexy, confident man who—against the odds—seems to like Jonah in spite of his very ordinary, but difficult, life.
Sensing a kindred spirit and a common interest, Ethan thinks a platonic friendship with Jonah won’t violate his fair trade rules of sex and touch, but Jonah has different ideas. Ethan’s pretty sure his choice of jobs has stripped away all hope of a real relationship, but Jonah wants the whole package—the sexy man, the vulnerable boy, the charming companion who works so hard to make other people happy. Jonah wants to prove that underneath the damage Ethan has lived with all his life, he’s still gold with promise and the ability to love.
I don't know what I was thinking this week, every book that I have read has been something that has ripped my heart out and just completely wrecked me. All I need to make this the tri-fecta of angst is something by J.P. Barnaby, then I really will be a pile snotty tears.
Ethan is one of those characters that you really want to get their own book but you know it's going to be like swimming in the ocean after crawling through razor blades. And yeah that was pretty much how I felt. I also had to keep reminding myself that it would do no good for me to drive to Sacramento to grab him and hug him because Johnnies isn't a real place and Ethan is not a real person. But the emotions that I experience while reading these books is so real and visceral that it's hard to remember it's just a book.
Going into this story I thought the hardest part to get through was going to be Ethan's account...oh Lord I was so wrong, Jonah came with his own heartbreaking story line. I loved Jonah and his family and they way they came together.
Now don't be scared by the drama and the tears because there is such a strong story of family and survival in these books that you can't help but have a bit of your faith renewed by reading them. Yeah there are some horrible moments that you just want to crawl inside the book and shake Ethan's mom, and the rest of his family kind of pisses me off as well, but then you get those little nuggets of Dr. Uncle Stottemeyer, and they way that the guys from Johnnies all come together, and lets not forget some really beautiful love scenes. So at the end of the day, what you walk away with is a wonderful story of two people.
I love these boys and even though I know it will break my heart I can't wait for the next one!